Yesterday was pretty much a non-event for me. I spent nearly the whole day asleep or at least laying down for most of it. I got up for the essential stuff - coffee, to have a smoke, calls of nature... I didn't even answer the phone when it rang. I was lucky to have Colleen here to help me with keeping Kasey amused, otherwise I don't know what I would have done and Kasey would probably be dead by now - either by his own hand, from getting into stuff he shouldn't, or by mine from snapping like a dry twig.
I had the most horrid migraine that I have had in a while. Nothing I did would make it ease off. It is still niggling at me now, but at least I can function a little bit better - and that will only last as long as it is quiet in the house and he isn't running around yelling and screaming and banging his toys and things all over the place. Lately, the slightest loud noise irritates me and I find myself getting more and more angry over it. I know this is stupid, and totally irrational, but I can't help it. Plastic bags and paper rustling - you know what I mean - when someone squishes a plastic bag up or screws up some paper... The TV annoys me too. Any noise at all annoys me to the point where all I do is yell or lash out at whomever is making the noise. How am I supposed to cope with this. It is totally irrational but I can't help how I feel. Perhaps the doctor that I am seeing later today will be able to help me with this. God knows I need some help from someone to deal with it. I am getting worse by the day and I am scared that if I don't work out how to cope with what is going on in my head soon, I am going to hurt someone -whether it be myself or someone else.
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